Uday Kiran in Telugu means the morning sun or the morning sun rays but sadly the actor Uday Kiran did something which negates the meaning of his name. He ended his life on the midnight of 05-01-2014. The glitz and glamour of Cinema blinds us so much that we never really understand the actual emotions of any actor or actress. Suicides are not new in film industry but every time I hear a suicide news I am really not sure, how to react or whom to pity! Uday Kiran is famously called as hat-trick hero as three of his consequent movies, Chitram, Nuvvu Nenu , Manasantha Nuvve were super hit. Manasantha Nuvve was even remade in other languages including Hindi. I remember the time in 2002 when all teenage girls had a crush on Uday Kiran after watching his movie Nuvvu Nenu. The songs, the pair (Anita and Uday) and the simple teenage love story charmed the audience. Even Nuvvu Nenu was remade in Hindi in which Tushar Kapoor paired up with Anita but definitely the magic couldn’t be recreated.
Uday Kiran was praised to skies and he got the chocolate boy image instantly. He rose in his career and the roles suddenly dwindled whatever may be the personal or professional challenges. He tried his best to come back on the track but failed due to various reasons. The competition and the passion to be a notable hero and the financial issues weighed on him. Few news articles claim that few heroes have conquered the filmdom and there is no scope for actors like Uday to rise and shine here. This is partially true as we all know that it is easy to survive in Cine Industry if you have a god father. However there are proofs that if you are a bad actor survival chances are meagre. I can understand Uday’s depression but what I don’t understand is the impulsion to die. Last year when Jia Khan committed suicide I failed to understand the same thing. There are many popular figures and celebrities who became famous only after their death. The life and death of these stars is quite dramatic. Most of these stars are young. The urge to die at the age of 20-30 scares me.
When I read that Uday informed his friends about his depression and the will to die that fateful night I felt that somewhere in the corner of his heart he wanted to live. If only someone stopped him that second may be he would have come out of the mental trauma. If only he received proper counselling may be he would have plunged back in his career. If not in cinema may be he would have acted in TV. If only his family recognised his suicidal tendencies and took some serious precautions may be they could have saved him. If only Uday Kiran thought about his wife and saw the future with her for a minute, if only he imagined for a second how doomed his well-wishers will be after his demise, if only he fought with life rather than embracing death so easily he would not have taken this hasty decision. But, now we have only many ifs and buts looming in front of us.
These ifs and buts will haunt his wife Vishita throughout her life. They will haunt his friends and family as well. He hanged himself in the gym room of his flat but that one second just before he died I wonder what would have crossed his mind. I wonder what all he wanted to say to the world before leaving.
|Uday Kiran with Wife Vishita - Image source - here|
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I felt sad on knowing that he sent the sms, “I love you too” to his wife. If only he loved himself little more and filled his heart with courage he would have seen the morning sun rays of 06-01-2014! All in all Monday morning was gloomy to me. I just couldn’t get his face out of my mind. His smile and the dimple were dancing in front of my eyes and I couldn’t sleep properly. May his soul rest in peace.
Some other good movies in which Uday acted are Holi , nee sneham and kalusukovalani
A famous song from his movie Manasantha Nuvve. One of my most fav songs. R.I.P. Uday Kiran
This is a very sensitively written article, Afshan. I haven't watched any movie of his but I can totally relate to how horrible and upset you might feel. I felt the same when I heard of Jiah Khan's suicide (but nw it seems it was a murder or something). And what is more upsetting is that nobody recognised his call for help. It indeed is extremely sad.ReplyDelete
Thanks Swarnali. Ya same here. Every time news is same. People r different. Saddens me terribly !Delete
:( Thanks for reading
Afshan...Very good article about Uday Kiran..Even I couldn't forget him and His smile and the dimple were dancing in front of my eyesReplyDelete
Thanks Amala for ur time here. Sorry to have reminded yet again but I was impacted big time somehow !Delete
he should have sought professional help. people in showbiz are more prone to depressions. Limelight is really addictive it seems. may his soul RIP.ReplyDelete
Ya when once u r used to name , riches and fame its tough to lead a normal life. It is all scary all in allDelete
thanks for reading Ankita
I came to know him only when I read about his suicide in the newspaper. It's really upsetting and along with that a question, why the urge to die is superseding over an urge to live?ReplyDelete
Your words touched me completely...you're right! if only there had been someone to feel his anxiety and signs of abruptly setting down of the sun who used to shine bright always..
Thanks for reading Simran. Ya many knew him after his death :(Delete
There are many if onlys left for us now !
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Very nice article afshan. I am however still not coming to terms with this. How can any reason be reason enough to end one's life. It takes more courage to die than to live??? Everyone has pressures. Succumbing to them shows the world what an easy target u are.. :( I really wish he could have explored other areas of income instead of just depending on films.. He, being a "hero" has set a really bad example by doing something soo trivial. I really feel one more life is wasted! :( :( :( did he even think what could have happened to that lady he soo happily married a year ago?? If only he could have put a little more sanity in to this thought... That fatal day wouldn't have come... :( anyway. Wish and pray his wife takes this with lots of strength... :( RIP Uday...ReplyDelete
Same here Ramya. I am also trapped in nothingness where I feel many what ifs and possiblities ! killing one self is such a traumatic thing to do !what all u posted in the comment above. Same questions bother me too :( !Delete
Thanks for ur time here
Sometimes all it takes to save a life is a few minutes of listening and a few minutes of talking. Wish someone had helped him speak out and vent out instead of bailing himself outof this world. SSuicidal tendencies are prevalent in many and can be easily tackled with time and love. May his soul rest in peace.ReplyDelete
ya suicidal tendencies scare me !Delete
thanks for ur time here Rekha
Very well written. May his soul rest in peace.ReplyDelete
I got goosebumps reading this. Bad goosebumps!!! Sad this was...depression is such a cruel thing. I have a cousin suffering from it.ReplyDelete
:( Hope ur cousin seeks help . Help her in any possible way and see that she comes out of itDelete
thanks for ur time Red handed
Very well said --- *If only he loved himself little more and filled his heart with courage*...Had his wife came home after party he wouldn't have done this and read that he told his wife that we wants to suicide. I feel very sorry for that girl....may she get enough courage to face the world.....The good thing is has a job and a family to give her support.ReplyDelete
ya no one being at home was like the right time for him. feed bad at that. He should have been counselled . Our positive hearts always try to search an alternative which would have helped him to live :(Delete
Thanks Varunavi. Keep reading
"Empathy is the greatest virtue. From it, all virtues flow. Without it, all virtues are an act. " Eric zorn.
He was surrounded by actors living in a pseudo world. If only someone from the real world , Which is his immediate family empathised and empowered him this would not have happened.
Thanks Swarna Jyothi for dropping by here.Delete
ya pseudo actors world is way too dangerous at times !
thanks a lot for the great quote . Keep reading
@ Shaivi: Thanks SG : Echo the sameReplyDelete
Well written Afshan..!!ReplyDelete
Uday Kiran, Veteran Hero Suman are Victims of Politics being played in Tollywood.. & we all know who are those forces ruling Film Industry..