Dear I.N.,

Dear I.N.,

It is sad that I have to actually talk to you via my blog and a 30 day letter challenge. You very well know that I never believed in making or being a "best" friend. When every one in school already have chosen the list of their "best" friends I felt silly. To me friend is a friend. Sometimes I had good friends but mostly I never opened up much and used to live in my own shell. I belonged to no one and no one belonged to me. You always loved my company and I always felt positive in your company. I never realised that I wanted you to be my special friend in my subconscious mind till we went to a trip during our Xth standard to Hyderabad. The helluva time we had, the hardships we faced, the cold water baths we had to take early in the morning and my non-stop earthquake like laughter which used to make you so happy will always be remembered by me. You had your personal challenges and upheavals. That was the time when I missed you a lot when I couldn't see you around much. We got more and more close with each passing day. When you really wish to do some thing the universe conspires to help you. Your house was just a stone's throw away from mine and it became a ritual to see each other every day :)

We even share our first common crush ;) - Do you remember that handsome Muslim guy who was your neighbor ? The college guys who stayed in the rooms on your terrace , the rainy evenings we spent studying less and chatting away to glory, your mum's coffee, our cycle races, a herd of buffaloes or pride of pigs blocking our way and me cursing them in English and you laughing like you just lost it and every one on the road eyeing at us, like we are two weird creatures out of the zoo, our secrets , gossips , ambitions , heart breaks - all these surface in my mind like they happened yesterday when I think of you.

Not even a day went by with out talking to you. In hostel we used to talk regularly and write letters to each other too. I have your in-land letters preserved in my same old file. I always wished I had half the courage you had. I remember how easily you explained geometry to me. Do you remember in 2005 some time we discussed college, girls , boy friends and how every one was making one and you and me are always left out :( ? Then didn't we decide that if we don't get suitable BFs we the BFF's (best friends forever) can make a great pair. I remember walking in the corridor at 11 PM in the night talking over phone with you and laughing loud. Time flew. We grew and life came in between us. Our friendship larger than life was always with me but I just was not able to be in touch with you. We occasionally spoke over phones till 2009 after you left for the U.S.A. but after that you just got lost in nothingness.

Where the hell are you I.N.? You don't even have a frigging idea that I am blogging a lot from all these years. I am inquiring with whom ever I know to know your where abouts. Your e-mail id and number also are not working. I am hoping miraculously some one passes this blog link to you and you get back to me. If you do not get back to me, remember I am breaking up with you once for all :( You were,are and will always be with me in spirit !

Love you loads.
Missing you a lot . Hope we talk to each other soon :)

P.S. I.N. Deepthi is my school friend. We always called her with initials as we had two Deepthis in our class. She is my special friend and no one took her place till date. I realized I like her a lot more than I thought I did only after my schooling when we stopped meeting each other. Hoping that on some day we might just meet :)

I am participating in the 30 Days Letter Challenge where you write one letter each day. The first in the list is a letter to ‘Your Best Friend’.

Thanks to Shail and Nandana. Was drawn to this prompt coz of their letters - Dear Best Friend and Dear N