Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Jaise koi train choot rahi ho... Feelings Unlimited :-)

If you are a big time movie buff and a Bollywood movie lover like me, you would have figured out the title by now. This is a famous dialogue from my all time favorite movie Jab we met but it is not the mere memory of that scene which made me start this blog post. This line got stuck in my head some time early in the morning at around 4 O clock and refused to leave. In the scene when the leading lady says ajeeb si feeling, Jaise koi train choot rahi ho - in English means , a strange tense feeling like you are about to miss the train. Endless thoughts , Jab we met and this dialogue kick started the engine of my train of thoughts and I am writing this so as to pull the chain of that train :)

In the movie the female protagonist Geet uraf Kareena Kapoor misses the train in the very start of the movie after meeting Aditya (Shahid Kapoor). This scene is the heart of the movie as it kick starts the story and the turns and twists in it get etched in the hearts of the viewers. The moment she misses the train , and her scary expression always make me laugh. From then the movie is a laugh riot followed by few scenes which always make me both sad and happy. As the movie picks up pace the male protagonist realizes that Geet is in love with some other guy Anshuman and is actually planning to run away from home and get married to him. Aditya gets involved in the whole drama created by Geet and says bye to her after dropping her near Anshuman's home, but in a weird turn of events it so happens that Geet gets rejected and her ego crashes and confidence shatters. The dejected Geet stays near the same hill station (Manali) and starts teaching in some school. After many months Aditya goes to meet her. It is his duty now to save her from the plight and breathe life in to her. She slowly regains her original spark and the Geet factor and says to Aditya ,  "Pataa hai mujhe kaafi dinon se daraawni sapne aate the, jaise meri train choot rahi ho " (From many days I am getting nightmares ..with a feeling as if  I am missing my train)  . She says and laughs when Aditya gives assurance to her that there is no need to be scared as she finally caught her train!
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Now I will give a break to the movie narration and come back to my train of thoughts and why the dialogue got stuck in my head. Many times in life we all feel new. Some times we feel we may never get acclimatized to the new atmosphere, new changes and any thing which is a novelty . Always we feel that old times were better. New things scare me and I take pretty long time to get accustomed to everything new and in that process some times there is a need to shed my old self , old inhibitions and old thoughts and everything old which gives me a feeling of missing a train - ek ajeeb si feeling (strange feeling)

Just 2 years back I was resigning from my first company where I served for 5 years. Till last day I didn't feel a thing, but on the last day when I returned my Gym card, health membership card, id card and everything which is the property of Infosys, my heart sank. Only I know how many times I looked back to have a final glimpse of the magnificent campus. I had to leave to Delhi as I got married. I was a scaredy cat in the beginning but I guess I did just ok. I made few friends even if I felt that I missed a train - a colorful train of my life - my first job at a wonderful place, some wonderful friends and my blogging- the seed of my blog was sowed when I was at Infy

Rewind to college days....


I hated my college. I hated it so much that I actually thought of dropping out twice, once in first year and then in my 2nd year. I cursed under my breath when ever I attended a M1 or M2 class (Maths 1 and Maths2). I was a Biology student who joined biotechnology. Maths was mandatory in first year even if we were not aware of basics. Our education system has always been like this. What we learn and what we understand and what actually we apply in a working atmosphere are all different. Slowly I got used to the college atmosphere. I felt it is my place. I studied properly and stood 3rd in class and just like that it was our farewell day. I again felt that train choot rahi hai and I need to board a new train.

 I get used to a place. I take lonnnnnnnnng time to like it and then melodramatically the last day at that place comes up or may be it is the other way round that the last day comes up and I melodramatically start loving the place!

Rewind to school days...

It was our school farewell. Every one cried a bit but I howled. 10 years in the same school is not a joke. Too many memories entwined with the place. Too many friends whom I am leaving behind to study and reach new heights in life. I was favorite of many teachers. One of my teachers cried when I went to her with slam book. Those memories are still strong. That was the most beautiful phase of my life. I wished it should never end but it did end. I finally digested the fact that I won't be going to school anymore and I had to leave the place forever.

Similarly there were many junctures in my life when I felt that I won't feel the same again in life but strangely enough most of the times I did feel the same again and again. The cycle was just repetitive.  I used to have a friend in my office who was pretty close to me, who used to love what I write but he suddenly stopped talking to me for a reason not known to me. In case of women I can predict few reasons like complicated feelings, competition and jealousy but I really don't know which reason to figure out in case of a man :) May be the same reasons apply for them too but it is still puzzling as to why a friend who had a great bond with you all of a sudden chooses to be mute and avoid you like plague! Like they say life is simple , we make it complicated. As I couldn't guess the reason every simple thing seemed like a reason to me. May be getting married is also a strong reason for some people to totally stop talking !

 Whatever it is I do miss the olden days and old friends. Some friends might stay for a reason and some just for a season
but I do remember all of them fondly. I always feel life won't be that interesting again but I move on and board a new train and life goes on with many interesting turns and twists!

Coming back to my heart favorite movie - Jab we met and our phenomenal Geet, in the last scene Geet talks to her self when she realizes she is in love with Aditya!

"ajeeb sa dard ho raha hai...bechaini sa..
jaise koi train choot rahi hai..."

[I am having a strange pain...a kind of impatience and restlessness... like I am about to miss a train :) ]

When her college love- Anshuman comes back to her and on one fine morning starts discussing the agenda of the meeting which is to convince the parents and get married, her thought train gets derailed  and she talks the above lines to herself and runs and hugs Aditya and reveals her love :) All's well that ends well! May be real life is tougher than reel life but one should keep in mind that even if you miss a train you can get in to another one and continue the journey called life fruitfully. The feeling of missing a train is common to most of us but the wisest thing one can do is board a new one and embrace the new changes and new life! 


Having dispensed all this gyaan (crap?),which you patiently read till now, I am pulling the chain of my thought train! 

P.S. 1: Written this as I  haven't blogged for about 15days and may be due to something else which I can't reveal for now :)

P.S. 2 : Kerala travelogue will take some time. May be I will write it when I have immense patience and time when I can relive every moment and write properly!

P.S. 3: May take one more long break from blogging

39 comments:

  1. It was a fun read...mixed with some gyaan too :) And of course the lovely movie talk made it all the more better :) I am not so wary of new changes, but can appreciate this strange feeling of "jaise train choot rahi ho"!

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    1. Thanks Beloo. Glad to see first comment from U !
      ya that movie and dialogue jst got stuck in my head . That feeling is so strangeeeeee :)

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  2. I loved boarding the train of your thoughts and I could relate to them so much.. ohh and I love the movie and Geet's character.. :)

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    1. Thanks Ankita
      That is an all time fav movie for me too :) :) ! Glad u liked the post

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  3. Welcome back. And you tell you're leaving already? Oh no! come back soon. This was a rather fun post :)

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    1. I came back ;) Managed to write some how !
      thanks for reading Sid

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  4. I loved jab we met and your lovely post..Gyan indeed!! :)

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  5. Are you going on a train journey? :) Jab we met was a lot of fun. Reading your post brought it back :)
    And I am waiting patiently for your Kerala trip blog posts :)

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  6. Meri bhi train choot jaati hai...:-(
    Many of the portions in this post reminded me of pages from my own life. It happens. And I believe it all happens for a good reason even if it is all very painful.

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  7. your post reminded me of those old days :-) very well written Afshan :-)

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  8. I know that feeling in the pit of your stomach, even though I've never been on a real train :) But I HAVE had to change "trains" many times in my life. Sometimes, it was because I wanted to do so; other times, I was shoved off the train, sometimes while it was still moving. I had to change trains when I got married, too, and leave the city that I had chosen to live in and loved (Nashville) and the job I loved and all my friends to move to Los Angeles. It was hard to change trains then, but I've never regretted it!

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  9. You put many things in words so accurately. I know about the familiar feelings, leaving things behind, and people who turned on me for no reason.

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  10. I can only imagine the wonderful things happening in your life that is making you take another hiatus, Afshan! <3

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    1. Not toooo wonderful Rosh but ya I am shifting to stay with my husband. More details on it sooner. I am quitting the current job... Thats all

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  11. ahh...a feeling which tumbles your stomach upside down and just cannot avoid thinking about it whatever we do.Yeah lot of people say "you need to be outside your comfort zone to achieve something big" Is it all that necessary that to achieve something we get out of our comfort zone.That again takes to the well know story of the fisherman and the management guru where we finally achieve THAT thing what we are currently having,only little more struggle and patience.
    Yes, maybe what is yet to come is the most cherished in your life but who can predict it only to let go of the train.It reminds me of a saying:
    "Known devil is better than the unknown Angel"

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  12. hehe I never cried during farewells and I was actually very happy that the phase was getting over and that I would embark on new journeys...
    DO write the travelogue before the intricate details fade away.. :)

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    1. Yep there are few phases in my life too when I Wanted them to end and was happY :)
      but school farewell did make me sad
      YA Waiting for right amt of time for travelogue :-|
      Thanks Red

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  13. It's all about getting used to change and then loving it.

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    1. Thats true :)
      Thanks for reading Purba

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  14. Loved the post to the bits as it transported me to my good olden days :)...Yes I too miss many such things as you said. Loved the movie too. My childhood friend once was very tensed when she was about to start a family. She wanted to become a mother but then she was afraid of getting changed completely. Afraid not because of the added responsibilities but because of changing her role !
    Exactly she was expressing the same dialogue from this movie. And now after all these days she is a happy mother of a cute little baby and she is very proud of her new role.
    We never know whether the change comes for good or not but always there has to be some change to live our life completely.

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    1. That was a bful comment ! Ya I becm nostalgic by jst a poke !
      Its all abt accepting changes for a complete life- what a brilliant line. Good to know about ur friend who felt the same :)
      Thanks for being on my blog Aasyaan :)

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  15. Loved this post. I understand the feeling.

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  16. this movie is my favorite and your post is just amazing. :)

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    1. Thanks Sonali . Thanks for dropping by my blog

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  17. Nostalgia grips me, and I love it. :) Afshan, you write with your heart. :) Waiting for your Kerela trip posts!!

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    1. Thanks Arpita :) :) that was a cool compli

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  18. You echo my feelings Afshan. I have had my moments as this, continue to have them. All the best for your new ventures. :)

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    1. Thanks for ur wishes Pooja :)
      Ya thats how life is I guess, having too many such moments !

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  19. I loved that movie. And yeah there are certain things that are hard to leave but we have to. A nice post.

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    1. Ya but we have to leave no :(
      I love the movie too. Thanks for ur tiem Reema

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  20. Haila! I have felt this feeling many tyms. Strongest was just before getting married!

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    1. YA I too feel it many times :)
      Thanks for dropping by Sambeet

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  21. True.... life is simple, we make it complicated.
    Congratulations in being in the Directory of Best Indian Blogs for 2013-14

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    1. Thanks for the wishes Haddock and thanks for reading my post :)

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  22. Change, they say and I believe, is the only constant thing in life. Felt good reading your post :-)

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    1. YA change is the only constant. Good to see u after long Nand :)

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  23. This is so good. I have been feeling the same from last few days! Well written

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  24. you are traveling Washington DC to New York and Union City To DC you have to travel through Bus as i got Cheap Bus Tickets.

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