"10 Day You Challenge--post 3". "8 Fears"!!!!!!!

Fears !!! Yeowww .. Even when I write this word . I feel shaky and scared !! K But when I give a second thought like Harry potter “I Fear the Fear most” ,like when he looks at boggart it turns to dementor !!! J

For Non HP folks -- > [boggart is a shape-shifting creature that takes on the form of the viewer's worst fear]

[A dementor is a Dark creature, considered one of the foulest to inhabit the world. Dementors feed off human happiness, and thus cause depression and despair to anyone near them]. I Fear the fear most but the sources which generate fear are sometimes many sometimes None!! I show vigor at times and am quite a cissy-missy many a times!

Ø Energy Drainers: I fear them a lot. They are as good as Dementors!! Trying to demotivate you all the while. Trying to magnify your negatives , pulling you down , making you feel hollow. Well theres nothing much to say about them. I have spoken a lot on them. I shoo them away may be with the help of a patronus (some nice feelings and people around).

[For NON HP Folks-- A Patronus is a kind of positive force, and for the wizard who can conjure one, it works something like a shield, with the Dementor feeding on it, rather than him. In order for it to work, you need to think of a memory. Not just any memory, a very happy memory, a very powerful memory… Allow it to fill you up... lose yourself in it... then speak the incantation "Expecto Patronum"."]

Ø Fear of people who install fear in U: I can’t elaborate the varieties in it!! There are these terrorists and all kind of criminals who make innocents disappear like puff of a smoke and I can’t mention few things here. FEW PEOPLE install fear in a fashionable way by sending Fwd mails by showing “LIFE AFTER DEATH SCENES” and how you are burnt in hell if you are not god fearing ! ! Engulfing fear around peace, divinity and gentler things is something which I never understand and have stopped understanding! I can neither fight nor overcome this fear!

Ø Fear of losing people: This fear used to grip me a lot earlier!! Wanted to mention it as I had it for long (may be I still have itK). Am kinda used to good-byes now!! While leaving school and some age old friends I realized bidding Farewell is not my cup of tea when I had shed tears very easily!!!Later on there were many such junctures and I GOT USED to it. But still the fear sustains. May be this is the reason I sometimes fear of getting too close to the most likeable people!!

Ø Fear of getting old: When I see old age homes or for that matter the elder citizens (retired folks) at home! I fear THE IDLE LIFE a lot!! Sometimes it feels like “THE IDEAL LIFE” is over. Its fine if you stay occupied with few works!!But I fear WHAT IF I STAY TOTALLY IDLE? What if I AM LEFT LONELY? What if my hair is totally grey? and there is NONE AT HOME!! Sorry if am giving U jolts J but I do have such fears :D – ( Few days back some one wrote even when I turn 80 and am swinging in my old rocking chair I will be reading Harry potter ;)—May be I can do this!!! Slowly, feebly turning page by page. The 7 books may keep me alive for 7 more years :P )

Ø Fear of Memory Loss: Sometimes I get so overloaded with thoughts and ideas (mostly before or after sleep: P )that I feel When I wake up I will forget everything including "who am i?"!! or at times like some short term memory loss I may forget in next half hr. Sometimes I have an instant urge to pen down the thoughts as and when I get them. its not possible all the times and when I try recollecting them later they aren’t that effective.

Ø Fear of getting adapted: I can’t easily get adapted to a new place, new people, new food , new climate. It’s not actually a fear but U Can say DISCOMFORT. If I shift to a new place it takes me at least 3-4 days to get a proper night’s sleep J

Ø Fear of being able to easily trust people: This quality has not helped much! And most of the times the stark realization is being nice takes you nowhere. Doesn’t mean being rude takes U some where !! :D You have to just keep oscillating between both depending on situation and sometimes it feels that you should JUST NOT REACT!!I often think Life is flowery bedded and then realize one shouldn’t trust blindly! But sometimes our whims , reflexes act fastest and decide for us!!

That’s it I CANT THINK Of many more fears May be I need to end the number with 8!!

Ø Fear of Food cravings: With lavish spread of food in a city like hyderabad this is the commonest fear anyone has ;) ;) Tempting the taste buds and then feel guilty :P ! If I go to a wedding I try hard to not give a head turn in the direction of that favourite pastry or kheer or many varieties of spicy chicken. But if the whiff is too strong and pulls me like a snake charmer pulls the snake well You know the consequences right :P

"10 Day You Challenge--post 2". "9 Loves"!!

Well Well Love !!!

Love is in the air.. If we keep on telling what all we love I am damn sure the list will go from Kashmir to Kanyakumari but as part of the challenge started on sunday(due to time constraints couldnt continue immediately :| )I want to pen down the Top nine Loves of my Life!!! After revealing secrets which almost seem like my “LOVABLE” wishes/desires I don’t know what exactly to write here:-o Anyway here I ago!!

1.) Home sweet home: Who doesn’t love it. It’s quite silly to mention. But as I am starting from 1. I need to say . Home, Mom , Dad and My elder Bro. Where ever I go on this earth ,would always love to come back home and rest in peace

2.) My Huge Book Rack!!I want to expand it to a mini library and when I get old I am damn sure if my eye sight is good [after the laser treatment, cataracts so on so forth :P ] I will keep on reading

3.) Music/My IPOD: Especially all the Hindi melodies, 60s to 90s. Need to collect more n more! It’s so soothing and whenever I listen to them where ever I am, travelling in a bus, waiting for the train, engulfed by my thoughts, music just gives the relaxation needed and outlet for thoughts

4.) My Laptop: My dear dear laptop . If given a chance like in some villages people marry trees first as its some faith they have, I would marry my laptop :P It helps me to “Write” . This writing habit emerged coz of my laptop, so I love it!

5.) Mom Dad’s Wedding Album : I Love browsing through it again and again and I feel so thrilled every time and love browsing through the things she preserved like wedding gifts , saree etc etc! I feel excited.I LOVE THEIR MEMORIES! Till date I argue with them why didn’t they try to get a vedio of wedding L

6.) Home Made food: Take me to Taj, Take me to Oberoi or any other newly opened restaurant in the city especially Hyderabad being a place famous for FOOD I would always want to come back home and have that elaichi tea made by my mom or maggi noodles and chicken biryani . As a matter of fact anything and every thing made by her. I hope I learn atleast 20% of her skills and survive

7.) Slam Book/ Poetry: I always hold it carefully (the school slam book) as if its “Handle with care” thing in fear of spoiling it .The whole scribbling in the book is too near to my heart. Especially written by some of my teachers which are imprinted in my brain but I still love reading them again and again. How they felt about me!!!!!(The most favorite one is by my English mam Rezina) and I love spontaneous poetry written by me or my friends

8.) Family Get togethers: Earlier it used to be summer holidays from april till june for which I used to eagerly wait the whole year. There is no scope for it now but whenever we meet its all “ruckus” and feels like good old times are back! Now that there is a third generation my new loves are the kiddos Omi, Dani , Husna , Suhaan , Tabish and Ayaan !!ofcourse there’s no risk to show partiality here. Ayaan is my hero J

9.) My Friends : Yes life is so dull and incomplete in their absence . Today I read in some mail “Friends are the Family U choose for Yourself”. I Love those dear ones whom I can reach any time and talk anything without giving a second thought.

That’s all for now!

10 Day You Challenge--post 1. Ten secrets!!

Challenges are challenging and most of the times stressful and sweat on the brow is for sure guaranteed to reach the zenith but no challenge will act as a stress buster as much as the below one does and by the time you complete it you will feel good on accomplishing it and it will for sure bring a smile on your face. Well so if you feel like taking it up enter this 10day You challenge and pen down ALL ABOUT YOU!!!Here I go with my first day.10 secrets about me...aaaha!! Hold on.. Secrets which can be revealed ofcourse. The darkest and deepest secrets are meant to be secrets. So here are few secrets which can be shared and few are like open secrets J

So read on friends and take up the challenge if you like it !Meet again tomorrow

1.) I want to spend a week in future ofcourse in a remotest / least populated island with my most fav person .They say Pitcairn Islands in South pacific ocean is one of the least populated islands as of now with just 50 people(9 families precisely). If going there is not affordable atleast phuket islands or some other islands but a week atleast. Is some body saying amen!?? IF NO say it J

2.) I really hate people who just jump in to blogs / write ups and keep abusing in the name of criticism and who themselves cannot write a noteworthy or praiseworthy or comment/critic worthy stuff. All they want to take is “The magnifying of your negative aspects” challenge. I keep a distance from them(VERY LONG). If they try and get approachable well they get a piece of my mind in return

3.) I am obsessed with workouts be it daily walking or gym and am a foodie too and I though get hyper at times when I hog on food J I know how to balance it and am ready to join the group of people who ever have such real obsessions and share and take tips but people who never have an intention to work out keep giving or asking tips which makes me laugh

4.) I have strong liking for people who speak their heart out and who are naturally witty / funny when needed and keep their heart to themselves when situation demands be it a man or woman and a strong dislike for people who keep on highlighting “I SPEAK WITH ALL MY HEART” continuously as if I use my liver and kidney and who try to bring out their over-witty-funny-smarty nature with lotta effortJ

5.) I would love to take part in Burkha dutts “We the people NDTV” .if not take part just sit in audience beside burkha atleast in one episode not coz am crazy about her but as i need to grab the microphone to ask too many questions !!

6.) I love my girl friends (the closest ones). Am quite partial about them as I can speak my heart , liver , pancreas and kidney to them ;) and they can really understand it and come to my rescue especially when I fall face flat . Sometimes they understand it even when I don’t speak unlike many boys! I will anyways be writing a total article on girl friends sooner!:)

7.) I love Shahrukh khan. This love is MAD and unconditional and nothing can be done to repair it. He inspires me and I have a burning desire to meet him before I die and if possible take his interview and my most imp que will be “How do you handle the brick bats along with appraisal and move on in life and be successful?” and I wish my pulse rate to be normal when he shows that twinkle in eyes and that dimple in cheeks and gives some witty answer when that adams apple keeps tumbling![oops my *hearts already skipping a beat ;)*]

8.) This bit might not be possible but I want to stay with my parents for ever even after wedding. If not stay at least want to meet them very often! I DONT WANT TO BE A GUEST

9.) When sitting idle in rain, sleeping on terrace in cool breeze or browsing through diary , old books , old albums I go back in to memories and it always feels good/bad.

10.) Last but not the least I have nothing against God/Gods but I cant stand his Fans association.

There are many more OPEN secrets :) but it has to end at this bend when it reached ten !! So meet ya soon again may be tomorrow with the second challenge J

"Era of Online Plethora"

You Join a forum for some time pass , fun , some productive discussion , to know thoughts of people from new horizons, news , jokes , movie reviews , some interactions you wanna get involved in , some discussions totally uncalled for where you would wanna act just a silent spectator / ignore , last but not the least some new friend (!??) FRANNDSHIP (bahhh)! I absolutely loathe these unknown online friendships/Frandships which as of now are like blind hunts in a wild jungle and then a "Franchise" to grade / bash u / ridicule U!!!! In the beginning its all exciting till the newness or freshness wears off. Some one knows you in college alumni or in some forum or in some blog or through some xyz contacts and adds U! And U DONT mind coz after all theres no harm. Its all so simple, silly ,easy. You can talk talk talk ..but what ?!? What are U gonna talk !! At some point doesn’t it get saturated and most of them add by looking at your DP/ your name/ may be at times in most despo conditions just the gender(this applies to both girls/boys . Am not being gender biased)

I can bet my life on this that If I put an unknown girls hot pic i will get 20 frnd requests that day ! Sharing a news on a forum or discussing a issue once in a while is ok but having personal tiffs / arguments and grading each other’s nature or giving personal threats is a crime which has no law to punish ! Have any of You given a thought of all the #of friends you have on facebook/ any other social network and with how many You actually talk and how many you actually know / personally interacted and can call them as your friend!!...People strangely feel happy about their no. Of friends . I have seen some putting it as status message too . Today i have got 1000 friends yippee and they all know me or I know them all . The latter half is hard to believe. Well even if he knows them. Yes he knows them. He is as good as a celebrity ..but they being labelled as friends is what surprises me!With this relation people take so much liberty that I seriously feel that with so many laws these days (even there is section 377 for gays )I hope a law for even FB crimes are framed where a friend when harassed can report the same at court rather than on FB. Ya there is report/ Block option on FB. But I hope there is some legal action as well in loop with this . We must have heard of Cyber Crimes but about these mental harassments which start in the name of frand-ships and are all of a sudden are energy draining should also be punished!! I am saying this coz there are many sick people around who are playing safe in a hoodwink along with good people and most of the times in these online relations its very hard to predict whos who and whos what !? It is tough ! Its always good to improve networking but when you come across these troubled heads you feel “ bhaad me jaaye networking” .

Opinions differ. Still people try hard to say ,am right U r Wrong !!!

Am happy U R not!!!

Am self satisfied .You are not!!!

All have brains. Intelligence is some thing which is like tax free these days and everybody is earning it easily . Not all have a big heart to hold others opinions as well and be empathetic! They fight till their last breathe to prove their point and they want to go to any level to prove their point. Even if I say I don’t wanna get dragged some try hard to make us lose temper and break the attitude and moreover challenge saying it feels good to break strong attitudes. Well its high time to end it then and there and we end it!

I thought how can some one who was utterly sweet in the beginning suddenly start this personal judgement!! Or with this label of witty prankster how can one fool around all the time I MEAN c’mon WE NEVER MET!! We are not school friends neither work place friends. We just interacted on some writer’s / bloggers forum!!! To cut jokes and have a fun filled atmosphere is good ! its lively in a mundane office atmosphere but it surprises me when people easily cross the barricades which they shouldn’t and ask all kind of personal questions. Once/ twice its bearable! We can forgive and forget thinking “OK as we spoke for longer may be he/she got carried away and this que popped up in his empty cauldron like brain where nothing is brewing as of now!” but always and all-ways. NO ITS NOT DONE!!!!

I MEAN SERIOUSLY HAVE PPL GOT NOTHING GOOD TO DO IN LIFE......!?

Even if you are jobless there are countless things to keep yourself occupied! “IDLE MANS BRAIN IS DEVILS WORKSHOP” Someone told it very aptly . Here i see many vampires ready to suck the blood out of the normal folklore!but today I want to tell only TROUBLED people want to create trouble to others

Just an example below to show how much people poke their nose around!

Good news episode

Theres some one who is always surprised if i look extra fair/ bright/ happy who usually interacts with me only online once in a blue moon.Suddenly out of the blue the stranger is at my desk . I politely give a welcome smile

XYZ: Hey Afshan. What yaar any news

Me a bit surprised : No y?

XYZ: You looking so bright. So!!

Me: [SO what SO!? ]No nothing! Thanks anyway. [I don’t know how to acknowledge such appraisals as they are always appended with she-has-some-news-for-sure kind of a doubt]

XYZ: No tell us na!! I guess you are hiding something? with a wicked glint in the eyes

Me: What ? Nothing to hide! There is no good news.[What will i hide!?!Am neither eloping with any boy friend nor going on some other secret mission. What should i cook up and tell K]

XYZ: Looking at your face I thought You have at least something to tell .Thought you got the prospective groom

Me: Now people!! I SERIOUSLY wanna go and bash the one who coined this “IGNORANCE IS BLISS”.If the one who is asking me all these questions with that forever bliss on the face is ignorant then man ignorance might be bliss to the one adorned by it but THE BLISS IS PAIN IN ASS TO THE ONE WHO IS questioned

Some people just can’t digest others happiness irrespective of major events in life! According to their scale if happiness is measured from 1 to 10

It goes like below

Ø 1 for singles

Ø 4.5 for committed people

Ø 6 for committed people who go on continous dates and get too many gifts

Ø 8 for married couples

Ø 10 to pregnant moms and the respective dads or who just delivered and made the family complete.

According to them others who fall in 1 or 2 just cant be happy or look bright or beautiful. They cant climb the happiness ladder. They try hard to break the rungs of the ladder so that you fall down.I may sound caustic but credit goes to the 10 pointers who bombarded the peculiar questions many times. I mean if they are really so happy so satisfied by their lives and so beautiful/ handsome and smart y this nose poking!

Lastly my advise to ESPECIALLY girls over there who are sensitive

1.) Do not trust some one blindly only coz of the “ONLINE” face and the impressive pings /mails after an interaction over a forum

2.) Even if you talk and want to improve your network limit it to 2-3 min formal talk. REMEMBER NEVER BEYOND THAT

3.) It’s good to be pessimistic at times. Not all can be good

4.) People who add You by your foto or some silly odd convo .A BIG NO NO...STAY AWAY...just coz he is sweet don’t be under impression he will stay sweet

5.) If you are witty most of them are not going to resist it . Y GIVE A CHANCE TO SOME BUGGER to try hard to break it

6.) If someone shows a over dose of smartness and is trying to win over you in person ,well not a good sign!!

7.) Any social network addiction is horrendous. Forums are good once in a while but lot of interaction is useless/worthless/mindless/baseless

8.) DONT LET any TOM DICK HARRY judge you girls. You deserve all the self esteem. This is even for boys....but GIRLS pls watch out . Be extra careful . (am adding this as recently i heard 2-3 cases where girls had to delete or deactivate their profiles due to a serious satyriasis case or nymphomaniacs)

9.) If you have talent you have it .If u don’t want to talk to someone you don’t want to U DONT have to!U HAV FULL RIGHTS TO DECIDE ABOUT YOU . DONT fall in the TRAP of some moron who says things to U as if he knows U. Don’t be so excited that you came across a doppelganger or an alter ego in a forum! If you feel there are negative vibes no need to still let him/her get on your nerves

10.) Family / Books / close friends / Television / movie are better recreations. Try to be away from being online as much as possible (This is much to myself but others can follow if they feel it good and chuck it if u feel it’s like preaching)

Grouches pull u down!! But i feel some people who always wear that fake smile and over project their happiness and keep nudging others doubting their happiness are sicker and can pull you more down. So people please watch out!!

To describe some people there are no better words in dictionary or any language

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He gave us Middle finger!!!

J.K. Rowling's and Trio's Speeches to Each Other - Deathly Hallows Part 2 London Premiere!!!

Cant wait to watch in Theatres Now!!!!

The magic..The saga will never end to me.This is for sure an emotional/ nostalgic moment.

The video below is at the premiere at Trafalgar square .

Couldnt resist blogging it as wanted to preserve the moment:)

Short Story!

“A dog is peacefully enjoying human shit in a narrow lane and U have to go to the other end.U r scared to walk .Its a big dog with crazy eyes. U pick a stone . Try throwing at the dog..U miss and it hits the shit...There are chances --SHIT may fall all over U..and the angry dog might bark madly and bite U and U may end up with rabies..."

Moral of the story : “Leave the dog and shit in peace and take the other lane" !
Prevention is always better than cure

The colours of nature!!

The dark black clouds spread in the sky,

Sucking all the brightness before they cry!

They shout in rage and burst in to heavy showers,

The relief and calm is soothing like it is after tears!

First the bright white lightening and roar of the thunder,
It shows that one can be bold and pretty stronger!

Then the sudden mist of rain drops and torrents,

Strength has limits, to let out fears there are no warrants!

The green plants and the bird cooing once washed by rains,

The nature’s canopy can fill peace by a single glance!

Your mood on watching the rainbow colours will enhance,

The smell of the mud can just leave you in a deep trance!

Then there are bright blooming red, yellow pink flowers,

When you see a pair you feel they are entangled like lovers!

A kid’s smile and the multi colours have same powers,

Both bring bliss however wavering might be your hours!

The colour of the sky and sea so pure and deep blue,

Gazing at them makes you feel godly and true!

The vast creations where they start and end there is no cue,

The sky and sea merge at some point blending the hue!!

The withered leaves of a tree so brittle and brown,

They no longer breathe life they always fall down!

Indicating the past should be forgotten saving a frown,

A new memory and a new life helps rather than a mourn!!

God’s nature has different hidden lessons to learn,

To just sit and watch it is a great treasure one can earn!

When you cross the phases of life and wherever you take a turn,

These things will always be with you stars, sky, sea moon and the sun!!